Last Words To You

Hi my love. I'm writing to you again
First of all , I'm sorry. Now I realize all of this happened cause of me . Words that came out from my mouth are harsher than I thought it . I never consider how you feel. I was a stubborn kid when I was with you. Selfish and self centered. I'm sorry for being such a control freak . I guess I'm a jar filled with vinegar , a XXL one. Time apart makes me think more about the problems we're having , the problems that I'm creating all this while . And the result is I'm not qualified to love or beloved . Cause I take things for granted and always asking for more . Nothing satisfied me I suppose . Even though time apart is good for thinking , but it also drive us apart more . When we stopped talking , someone just takes our place .And that stops us from finding each other. I always tell myself , I would only be with one man for my whole life . Even if I don't love him anymore , I won't leave him . Cause we were once so in love , and I just can't imagine someone else replacing it all . But I suppose I can't say that anymore . It's okay . I know we would meet someone even more suitable in the future . Anyway , I wished you well and thank you for thr patient with me all this time . Heart felt ! And I hope someday , I would learn from my mistakes and appreciate the one who loves me. And love him back in the right way . Someday , some magical day.